I’d been trying, I really had been. For Zeus, I was doing my best to keep my food in my stomach. Since I stopped wanting it to happen, it happened a lot less. Except for the past week. I couldn’t keep anything down. I was constantly bending over to empty the contents of my stomach into the toilet or a trashcan. I was miserable, and I couldn’t understand why it was happening.
“Athena?” Zeus asked from behind me, I hadn’t even heard him come in.
“I’m so sorry. I’m trying.” I responded tearfully. I felt awful for letting him down.
“Are you alright? You’ve been getting sick a lot lately.”
“I think I might have some stomach bug.” I mumbled.
“I’m not doing it on purpose, I swear.” I promised him as I walked towards him.
“I believe you. But this still isn’t healthy. Are you sure your not…?” His voice trailed off.
“Not what? Forcing it?”
My heart sank. “No. We were safe, right?” I asked, panicked.
“We were just so caught up…”
“Oh my god.” My stomach lurched again. “This is bad.”
“I know. But I’ll fix it. You stay here, I’m gonna run to the store to buy a pregnancy test.” He laid a hand on my shoulder. “We’ll go from there, okay?”
“Okay.” I told him. But I didn’t feel like it was going to be okay.
While Zeus ran to the store, I waited in the library. My mind was racing, I couldn’t be pregnant. Zeus and I had only been dating for a few weeks. We were both still in high school, if I was pregnant we’d never graduate or go to college. I’d never be a doctor like I wanted.
My grandma would kill me if I had a baby this young. She’s always been so proud of me, she’s always thought I could do amazing things. But now I’ll just be a teen mom with no high school diploma, working part time at the grocery store or something.
“Hey, I’m back. I’ve got it.” Zeus showed me the bag from the store when he came up the stairs.
“Thanks.” I said, wiping a tear from my eye. I hadn’t even realized I was crying.
“How’re you doing?”
“Not great. I’m terrified.” I admitted.
“Me too, but we don’t know if we even have something to be scared about. Here, take the test so we know for sure.” He placed the bag on the table.
I got up to grab it, but stopped and wrapped my arms around him.
“Thank you. Promise me you’ll be here for me, okay?”
“Of course. I’m not going anywhere.” He pulled me closer.
“I’ll be back in a few minutes.” I gave him a quick kiss before heading off to the bathroom.
“What the hell are we going to do?”
“I mean, abortion is an option, babe. No pressure, though. I just want you to know that’s an option.” Zeus and I sat in the library a few minutes later, after the pregnancy test came up positive.
“I don’t know if I could do that though. I want to go to college and stuff, but I don’t think I could go through with an abortion.” I stressed. I had options, I just didn’t know what option to choose.
“We should tell my mom. She can help us.” Zeus offered.
“She’s gonna kill us.”
“Maybe not. Sure, she’ll be disappointed, but she’ll want to help. She’ll help us come to a decision.” He ran his fingers through his hair in frustration.
“Alright, but not today. I’m not ready to handle that.” I admitted.
“Soon, though. We don’t want to run out of options.”
“Y-you’re pregnant?” Winter asked, the shock very apparent in her voice. I kept my head down, I couldn’t look at her. I didn’t want to see the disappointment in her eyes.
“Yes.” I answered timidly.
“How far along are you?”
“Not sure, but the only time we had sex was after homecoming.” I admitted.
“Okay, so you’re not too far along. Have you decided what you’re gonna do?”
“No, we’re not sure yet. We wanted to ask you for some advice.” Zeus answered for me.
“Well I can’t tell either of you what to do. But I just want you both to know that a baby is a huge responsibility. It’s not fun. You’ll have sleepless nights, you’ll want to rip your face off sometimes.” She started.
“Gee, thanks mom.” Zeus muttered, making me chuckle.
“I don’t mean it like that love.” She giggled. “I love you, but it wasn’t easy. Especially since I was alone. You too have each other, but this is a high school relationship. There’s no guarantee you’ll be together forever.”
“School isn’t going to be easy with a baby. You’ll have a lot of help from me, Elsa and Sebastian, but the majority of the responsibility will be on you two. You’ll need a job, babies cost money.” She explained.
“Is there any upside to having a kid?” I asked, the way she was talking about it made it seem like having a child was a major burden.
“Oh of course.” Her face lit up. “Having Zeus was the best thing that’s ever happened to me. There’s nothing better than seeing a tiny being that you brought into the world, staring back at you. I’ve never loved anyone like I love my son.”
“I’m scared that if I have this baby, I won’t feel that way.” I admitted. It was one of my biggest fears about having a baby. What if I didn’t love it?
“Why wouldn’t you?”
“Well my mom didn’t love me. She killed herself right after we were born. I don’t want to do that to my kid.”
“Oh Thena, Natalia had a lot of issues. But she loved you, I know she did. If her circumstances were different, she’d still be here. But unfortunately things didn’t work out that way. You have a great life, a loving family and a stable home. You’ll be fine.”
“What’s happening in here?” My grandma came in behind me, scaring the crap out of me. I glanced at Zeus. terrified about what I should say. He grabbed my hand under the table and gave me a squeeze.
“We’re just having a talk.” Winter answered.
“Sit down, grandma. You should be a part of this.” I said nervously.
“You’re scaring me.” She bit her lip nervously as she took a seat at the table.
“What’s going on?”
“I-I’m pregnant.” I told her, and I started to cry, I felt so awful. I knew I was letting her down.
“Oh. Oh my.” She covered her mouth in shock. “Do you know what you want to do yet?”
“I think I want to keep it.”
“That’s a huge, life-long responsibility my dear, are you sure you’re ready for that?” She asked me, obviously concerned.
“No, I guess not. But if you’re sure this is what you want, I’ll support you.” She sighed. “I mean, I’m not happy, but I know accidents happen. We can make the best out of this.”
“Thank you Grandma.” I smiled at her, maybe this would all work out in the end.
“Oh god, I’m gonna be a grandma.” Winter realized.
“Welcome to the club.” My grandma laughed.
We all went our separate ways not long after that. Artemis wasn’t home so I had our room to myself. I was terrified. I was having a baby, at fifteen. My life was about to be over, and I was willingly subjecting myself to that. This whole situation was overwhelming.
Sebastian quietly entered my room and sat down on my bed. He must’ve just gotten home from work.
“My mom told me.”
“Are you disappointed in me?” I asked.
“No. I’m scared for you. I know it’s hard to raise a baby. But I’m gonna help you as much as I possibly can. Because I love you, and I know I’ll love your baby.” He told me with a smile.
“Thank you.” I told him. “I’m so scared though.”
“I know you are. But you’re Athena Mortem. You’re awesome as hell and I know you can handle anything that gets thrown your way.”
“I hope so.” I said, but I wasn’t sure if I could.